A REPEAT???? Time to get my mind right....again!

13.3...it's a repeat. Can I just tell you how absolutely pissed off I was Wednesday when I heard this? 
For 100 reasons- here are just a few...
1. Who in the FREAK really wants to do 150 walls balls...Karen?
2. 90 dubs after 150 walls balls...why not make it 900?
3. Muscle up?? SURE WHY THE FREAK NOT??

This was how I was feeling last night. Talk about a bad attitude right? I couldn't help it. Of all the wods I have ever done this truly has been one of my least favorites. I don't even want in print how I did last year in fear of totally jinxing myself! How does one approach a wod knowing you can only get to a certain point. That no matter how much better, stronger or faster you have gotten over the past year...there is only so far you will get in the wod? 

And of course, this is why... here they are....still hanging on my bucket list....

NEMESIS

I had to quickly shake out of my anger and my funk...well. I didn't do it quickly at all. Ith as taken me an entire day to stop being so mad at the wod. Again- my first thought was that feeling of sinking defeat. I can't do better on this wod than I did last year...oh no...what if I do worse?
I am going to be honest. A little true confession. The Open has been kind of rough for me. I have had moments where I have questioned if I have even made progress over the past year. Am I really any better than 2012? Have I made progress really??  THEN.....I took a quick break at work today and decided to read something to cheer me ( I do this when I am irritated and frustrated-I read CrossFit websites, I watch videos, it's good for he mind and the soul) and holy SHIT! how is it that sometimes the right words just happen at the right time? CrossFit Lisbeth saves the day...AGAIN



"Your goal today is simple: Be better.
Be better in thought, in word, in deed. Be better at what you think, what you say, what you write, what you do.
Easy to say, harder to do. Or is it?
If you’re reading this, I’m betting that you want to be better. You are looking to improve. Whether you’re a CrossFitter or not, there is something in you that wants more of this life, that wants more of yourself. There’s some part of you that’s sick of the bullshit and the mediocrity and the “good enough” attitude that seems to pervade so much of this ridiculous world. There’s some part of you that wants to step out into the sunlight and tell the whiners to STFU, stop pointing at other people, and start saving themselves. As for you? Well, you already know you could be better; you’re just figuring out how to get there. Most importantly, you’re willing to do the work.
So step up your whole game today. I’m not asking for everything to be perfect — it never is. You’re going to mess up a shitton of stuff. Lifts will go bad, words will go wrong, mistakes will happen.
Just don’t accept them.
When you fail, try again. When you don’t even want to try, just try. When you want to spread anger into the world, think twice. Maybe that anger is really just you, mad at yourself. So, pick up the barbell and throw it down a bunch of times. F#ck up plates instead of f#cking up people.
And life will get better … when you get better."

Its silly really for me to question if I have gotten better. Even if I am not better at walls balls, or dubs, and just because I still don't have my muscle up...I am better at something. 
Everyday that I get up an I do something more than nothing with myself ...I am better. I am happy, healthy, gainfully employed, surrounded my by friends and family that love me. There are so many positives I have no idea why I let the negative thoughts creep in.

So...here's my plan for the silly repeat 13.3. Work as hard as I can for 12 minutes. That's it. If I have to breathe, I will breathe. What I won't do is quit. I am not a quitter. Negative thoughts...BE GONE!

Good Luck to all my peeps tonight. We got this...
NO food advise today. Well...fuel to fight- fuel your body to fight for every rep that you can get tonight! Friday Night Neon...lets do this!