Trying to find my Mojo...my focus...my center...

I haven't blogged for 2 weeks. If you noticed I am sorry. If you didn't notice...well shame on me. If you are relieved..ha! don't know what to say!

True confessions...struggling with alot of things right now. Its hard not to get discouraged when you feel like you are doing your best to eat clean and train hard and work hard and in the midst of it all balance all the many levels of life. Here are some things that have been draggin me down.

I have been sick 4 times in less than 60 days.

I have a NAGGING hip issue that is making me CRAZY.

I feel like I am frustrated and mad more than usual. 

And so on. 

Not trying to drop my shit on everyone. This is my life. NO BS. I am struggling. 

There is not a motivational saying, picture or quote right now that I can say moves me to the point that I feel like oh ya...sure..if i do this I will shake this funk. 

I am realizing of course there is only one thing really that controls any of the above mentioned things. ME. So here's the deal. In order to break out of this little funk I have convinced myself that I am in...I am going to keep doing the one thing that I do the very best. I am going to be consistent. 

Baby Girl slept through the night- Granny Jo..awake every hour

This past week I had the amazing opportunity to watch my sweet grandbabe overnight - this little girl ..seriously ignites something in my soul that I can't really explain. Case and point- this pic....CAN SHE BE MORE PERFECT? 

Anyway what I am ranting on about is that sometimes I lose focus. I get so caught up in things that although important and necessary aren't as dramatic as I make them out to be. 
So I am going to wrap my energy around the things that mean way too much to be dramatic about- being a good and available granny- getting ready physically and mentally for the CrossFit Open AND learning to breathe! Now that Yoga is back I feel like I am getting my hip issue dealt with and I am getting excited for whats coming up!
At some point in my life being simply "ok" became not good enough. Being "middle of the pack" isn't really for me. I want to be better than average. I want to do big things. I want people to point and look at me in awe and be like- if that ol broad can do it so can I. So..new week-new focus! Going to do what I do best. Focus and be consistent. That's all! Rant done!

FOOD STUFF!

Started back doing 2 things I had let slide. Bountiful Baskets-Sunday Costco Run. 

A VERY healthy basket!

Its crazy how quickly I forgot how much I love getting a basket. This one did not disappoint. I have had a hard time getting to the pickups but when they do it in Centerville at 8:30 pickup I cant get up - go wod at open gym then get the pickup spot just in time. 

This basket had lettuce-leeks, zucchini, cucumbers, broccoli, asparagus-for fruit- bananas, apples, oranges, grapefruit, strawberries and blackberries. YUM!

Two GREAT finds at Costco 

Thanks to my sis Liz and Jo- Avocado oil at Costco - I have the one from Costco and the one I purchased at Target next to each other so you can see the comparison. I think I paid about the same for both- the small one I got at Target. I LOVE avocado oil- use it to make my own mayo so I was super happy to get this little deal- just under 10.00!!!

The 2nd little find is these amazing little containers of guacamole. Jo and I went over the ingredients standing in every ones way at Costco and I am pretty content that the ingredients are pretty clean. Lets be honest- sometimes guac goes bad kind of fast so I was super happy with this little treasure find. There are 12 little single servings. AWESOME AND CONVENIENT!

THIS WEEKS FOOD!!

I am finding if I over think my food prep I fail too much. So I am keeping it simple. 

Look at these gorgeous filets!

When my Pops (who just had a bday! happy bday pops!) gives me fish, I TAKE FISH. The fillets have been smaller and I LOVE THEM! Seriously there is not really any fish better than this in my opinion. I am still grilling this on my bbq-use a little sea salt, cracked black pepper, greek seasoning, lemon and red pepper flakes! YUM. The bad thing about the smaller fillets...I can eat twice as many...is that really a bad thing? Not sure! This will be so amazing at lunch with some broccoli or asparagus!

My other meal option will be meatballs. This was posted on PaleOMG earlier this week and it is right up by alley. All flavors I LOVE so I had to make them. Meatballs go a long way so I always make sure that I make plenty! I am not going to lie- these are amazing!

http://paleomg.com/southwest-meatballs-with-creamy-cilantro-dipping-sauce/

So I used my mini chopper for this today- I tend to be heavy handed when I "dice" things.. meaning I cut huge chunks and I wanted little chunks for my meatballs

I have had this little sucker forever. Not even really sure where or when I got it. I just know it dices like a bandit!

 I love all the ingredients in this- the cumin, smoked paprika, I added pablano and I used more jalapeno than the recipe called for. I love my spice!

When I make meatballs...I make meatballs!!

As much as I love the mayo in this recipe- and I did follow the recipe for the dipping sauce. I think that just the first portion of the recipe minus the mayo is amazing- it's super fresh and the flavor is so good. I did however add the mayo and it's great-I just think I liked it without it. 

It mixes up really well but again it seemed a little heavy but its still seriously delicious. 

That's my food stuff. I am doing my usual breakfast-spinach -eggs and sausages with 1/4 avocado etc etc. 

The amazing and sassy Jen Sayes!

I have to give a HUGE HUGE shout out to my girl Jen Sayes. Jen has taken on the huge responsibility of teaching "Yoga" to a bunch of CrossFitters. A big calling- for many reasons I won't get into. I just want to say Jen, you are doing an amazing job. Many of us need this so bad. So thanks for taking time out of your Sabbath day and bringing "church" to the rest of us! You are awesome! I am finally feeling like I am finding my soul again- weird and creepy I know!

One more kind of weird and fun fact...it was recently brought to my attention that this is the year of the horse. Ironically...that is my birth year...also ironically...I have this tattooed on my ankle-So in a nutshell... ITS MY YEAR!!! So there it is...I better get to work on making it a better year before it's too late!

Well that's it folks. All I have for now. Not bad after 2 weeks of feeling sorry for myself!!

The CrossFit Open is getting so close I can taste it! I feel like I have something so amazing to look forward to. Get ready- now- before it's too late...and here's to all my peeps that haven't registered yet..WHAT IN THE HELL ARE YOU WAITING FOR??

Croni....out