Say goodbye to the world of "what if?" and start freaking living....

It's been a crazy busy week. Haven't had much to blog about. Until last night. I had an conversation with someone that prompted this post, I have tons of respect for this person and what I think she is capable of.. I am not calling her out because honestly I know that I call so many people out but I can absolutely respect anyone who feels like doing the Open is really not for them, family matters, injuries, things like that make sense. FEAR..doesn't make sense.  Anyway, it made me think so much...about life, about work, about CrossFitting about eating..it made me think so much I started just writing down random thoughts about this subject. Now, some of this post is going to be about doing the Open..well lets be honest...most of it. Sorry in advance to any non CrossFit readers. It it what we are living right now..so here goes nothing. Let me first just add this before i move on. Stole this off someones FB page because I felt it applicable.

"WHAT IF..."   This saying is said too much. My first thought was..this was me last year. I am having a conversation very similar to one I had with someone almost a year ago only this time I am being asked advise-it's a refreshing role reversal to say the least. "what if I can't do the movement/WOD?" I remember asking this very same question and, today I look back and think...what if I had not. What if I wouldn't have tried?

Here is what happens during the Open. After you get over the initial shock that you have actually registered to do this...regret sits in. Self doubt about movements-about wods- about making the time-about getting injured. All of these crazy thoughts go through your head. Have I done enough? Is it going to be more than what I am capable of, will there be a heavy overhead squat? will there be hand stand push ups..see..I have thought way too much about all of this and this is my take. If you have wodded more than once or twice a week you are capable of doing this. I can say if I have learned ANYTHING the programming at CF22 is preparing many of us to be able to give more than we currently know we are actually capable of.
I want to recap what I went through last year.
So the first WOD comes out- 7 minutes of burpees. it sucked ALOT but what is a burpee really?? throw yourself to the floor, get back up, clap over your head, back to the floor, stand back up..clap over your head. You got this-I think there is absolutely a method to the madness of the programming for the Open. 
WOD 1 I think most people knew that as bad as it was going to suck-they embraced it because quite simply it is doable my parents who are in their 70's burpee. 

Me and my girl sweet Mandy Rose checking on me...I am the one of the floor-makes me miss Mandy and Des so BAD!

WOD 2 comes out...eh snatch...90 of them? whoa...getting progressively heavy-but starting at a weight most people can do. As it gets heavier it separates athletes somewhat but again- doable-I didn't get ANY of the last 30 snatches but I still managed to do ok overall at this WOD. 

I was determined to get through this

WOD 3..oh sweet merciful lord..18 minute AMRAP?? really...but think about it..all again doable movements, box jumps, toes to bar, push press. Yes it was a little heavy but I remember this day MANY of our athletes pushed this weight who had never even tried before.

Sometimes all it takes is a huddle and GIRL POWER

WOD 4- Karen (150 wall balls) + 90 dubs + as many muscle ups as you can do with a 12 minute time cap. Uh programming redeemed..again I am hopeful and happy. Got through Karen and dubs with time to spare so I swung on on the rings..you know just for show.

I have my eye on the TARGET

WOD 5-We call it FRUN ish- but I think it is referred to as a FRAN ladder-with chest to bar pullups- 7 min AMRAP. 

Sadly...the Open ends...

That was it. I survived. It happened. I said WHAT IF...and then instead of not being able to find the courage to overcome the obstacles I have always let get in my way. I found it and forged forward and I  got ready and I did well. Had I not done well would I do it again? YES! absolutely in fact I am doing it again! Well for me doesn't mean I went to the games ( for those of you who don't know the masters age divisions do not have a Regionals-the top 20 athletes from each division go straight to the games) But I did finish 135th out of I believe 1100 women in my age group across the world...THE WORLD!!! 

Here is the thing. We hear all these motivational sayings about getting in the game, overcoming your fears and weaknesses and you see pintrest postings all day long that are supposed to motivate you to get out of your head and start doing.  All the amazing words in the world are not going to convince you to do something. I say so often there is only one thing standing between YOU and the YOU that you want to be, and it's YOU. So suck it up. Make that commitment that for once in your life you are going to embrace the fear, or whatever it is that is holding you back and you are going to start living your life. I don't know why this rant has ended up so long. I am super passionate about this.
I know for certain that for the people that participated last year when you talk to them about "Friday Night Lights" they literally light up-I would say this about the majority. There is something about being in surrounded by your fellow CrossFitters (and for me my amazing family) and they believe and then you believe that there is nothing you really can't do. I get chills just thinking about it. 
This year we have some amazing T-shirts as well as an amazing saying DFS!!! We all know what that means, Dont F*cking Stop. I am going to be rockin my shirt and with every single wod...iI am going into with like I am going to war and the only thing I am taking down as the enemy is my FEAR of not being able to do something. 
WHEW. How's that for a Friday Night? 
Shirts again for those of you whom are still trying to decide. Orders are being taken until Monday night. 

OH YA...my only food advice. If you have to eat out- here is a great healthy option at Chipotle- burrito bowl- no rice or beans-double veggies double chicken-add lettuce and guac!!! it's great in a pinch!